It's Not Easy (10/2/15)

It's not easy being me,
The things I do, the things I see.
It's not easy to be alone,
To do it all, all on my own.
It's not easy to get thru the day,
It may be rough, but I'm okay.
It's not easy to always smile,
But it eases the pain, at least for awhile.

TLA 
10/2/15

If Just For One Night (10/1/15)

If just for one night,
Let me pretend,
That it's me that you want,
But don't let it end.
If just for one night,
Tell me it's love,
That there's nobody else,
When push comes to shove.
If just for one night,
Tell me it's okay,
When it comes crashing down,
Beg me to stay.
If just for one night,
Hold me until tomorrow,
And when that time comes,
Please, don't let me go.

TLA 
10/1/15

Pieces (9/13/15)

You broke my heart,
You bruised my soul, 
They will never heal,
They will never be whole.
You held them fast,
In your fist,
You squeezed so tight,
I felt them twist.
You ripped them up,
Threw them to the ground,
Scattered them to the wind,
So they couldn't be found.
In a million pieces they fly,
To collide in the squall,
As hard as I search,
I cannot find them all.

TLA
9/2/15-9/13/15

Death (9/13/15)

Is it lonely where you went,
When you closed your eyes for good?
Would you say that you're content,
Or do you wish you could?
This place you've gone, are you alone,
It is you and only you?
Is it scary, the unknown,
Or something that you knew?
Is it dark and bleak with nothing there,
Or filled with those you knew before?
Does darkness fill you with despair,
Or does hope spring evermore?
If only we knew the answers we seek,
Before we break our final breath.
If only we had a little peak,
Maybe we wouldn't have to fear death.

TLA
8/26/15-9/13/15

Truth (9/10/15)

It's hard not to care about what people say,
When you know it's the truth that they tell,
Having to hear it day after day,
Knowing the truth all too well.
You wish you could turn and just not hear,
The words they feel they must speak,
You don't know why they must intervene,
And make your life feel so bleak.
Now you must learn to answer the call,
To give them nothing to say,
They like nothing more than to se you fall,
But you can take that away.

TLA
7/16/13-9/10/15

Release (9/9/15)

Last night I dreamt about you,
Why doesn't it ever end?
Will I ever see you again,
Or are we done, old friend?
Do you laugh when you think
Of the fool I made of me, 
Chasing after what never was,
And what could never be?
If only the dreams would go away,
And leave me a moment's peace,
I could let it go forever,
And finally get some release.

TLA
6/4/11-9/9/15

Waves (9/8/15)

I want to drift off,
With the sound of the waves,
Whispering in my ear.
The feel of the breeze
Caressing my cheek,
The creaking of the pier.
The overcast days,
The breezy nights,
The tide is drawing near.
The sound of the wind,
The lapping waves,
Are all I want to hear.

TLA
7/24/15-9/8/15

Broken Heart (9/8/15)

What do you do with a broken heart,
A heart that just won't heal?
What do you do with the feelings,
That you just can't help but feel?
Why can't they ever be thrown away,
And just get rid of the pain?
Why does it insist on lingering,
Why must it always remain?
Just when you convince yourself,
That it's now gone forever,
You realize that it's there to stay,
And will never leave, no never!

TLA
5/13/98-9/8/15

Frozen in Place (8/4/15)

Forever standing on the dock,
Yet always miss the boat.
Trying, trying not to sink,
It's hard to stay afloat.
Grabbing hard with all your might,
But can never get a grip.
Holding fast to what you know,
Yet always feel it slip.
Wanting to take a step away,
And join in on the race.
Running, running away from it all,
But forever frozen in your place.

TLA 8/4/15

Do I Dare? (8/3/15)

I ask myself, "Do I dare love again?"
When it never brought anything but pain.
I tell myself it's not worth it, but then,
Should I allow loneliness to remain?

It is possible to put it behind?
All the misery, the pain and deceit?
Or will it always be there to remind,
That love has always gone down in defeat?

I try to decide if it's worth my heart,
To take the risk of additional break.
To leave it intact or break it apart,
And take the chance of another mistake.

And I sit here with no answers to share,
So I keep asking myself, "Do I dare?"

TLA 8/3/15