Contradiction (7/23/15)

I was never hip, I was never cool,
Always hopeful, yet always the fool.
I am the lonely, even in a crowd,
Realistic, but my thoughts in a cloud.
Wanting to belong, but always stood out,
Craving confidence, but always in doubt.
Wanting to think that I am ten feet tall
Wishing I didn't always feel so small.
Worrying how I will get through the day,
Somehow knowing it will all be okay.

TLA 7/23/15

Questions (7/23/15)

How could the sadness in the eyes be missed?
Why is there loneliness when the lips are kissed?
When is there time when you have been dismissed?
Where is the soul when you only exist?
Where can you go when there's no where to run?
When will it end when it's only begun?
Why reach for more when you know there is none?
How could the sadness ever be undone?

TLA 7/23/15

Remember When (7/19/15)

Remember when, so very long ago,

When I thought the two of us were good friends?

All the times we spent, oh how could I know,

That in time, all things will come to an end.

Remember when you asked me to leave you?

And yet you wouldn't explain to me why,

After all these years if you only knew,

How much it killed me to tell you good-bye.

Remember the card that you sent me?

A year after that heart-breaking fall night?

A Christmas card with your apology,

And yet, still no explanation in sight.

It will be eighteen years in November,

I wonder if you even remember.

TLA 7/19/15