Death (9/13/15)

Is it lonely where you went,
When you closed your eyes for good?
Would you say that you're content,
Or do you wish you could?
This place you've gone, are you alone,
It is you and only you?
Is it scary, the unknown,
Or something that you knew?
Is it dark and bleak with nothing there,
Or filled with those you knew before?
Does darkness fill you with despair,
Or does hope spring evermore?
If only we knew the answers we seek,
Before we break our final breath.
If only we had a little peak,
Maybe we wouldn't have to fear death.

TLA
8/26/15-9/13/15

Truth (9/10/15)

It's hard not to care about what people say,
When you know it's the truth that they tell,
Having to hear it day after day,
Knowing the truth all too well.
You wish you could turn and just not hear,
The words they feel they must speak,
You don't know why they must intervene,
And make your life feel so bleak.
Now you must learn to answer the call,
To give them nothing to say,
They like nothing more than to se you fall,
But you can take that away.

TLA
7/16/13-9/10/15

Release (9/9/15)

Last night I dreamt about you,
Why doesn't it ever end?
Will I ever see you again,
Or are we done, old friend?
Do you laugh when you think
Of the fool I made of me, 
Chasing after what never was,
And what could never be?
If only the dreams would go away,
And leave me a moment's peace,
I could let it go forever,
And finally get some release.

TLA
6/4/11-9/9/15

Waves (9/8/15)

I want to drift off,
With the sound of the waves,
Whispering in my ear.
The feel of the breeze
Caressing my cheek,
The creaking of the pier.
The overcast days,
The breezy nights,
The tide is drawing near.
The sound of the wind,
The lapping waves,
Are all I want to hear.

TLA
7/24/15-9/8/15

Broken Heart (9/8/15)

What do you do with a broken heart,
A heart that just won't heal?
What do you do with the feelings,
That you just can't help but feel?
Why can't they ever be thrown away,
And just get rid of the pain?
Why does it insist on lingering,
Why must it always remain?
Just when you convince yourself,
That it's now gone forever,
You realize that it's there to stay,
And will never leave, no never!

TLA
5/13/98-9/8/15

Frozen in Place (8/4/15)

Forever standing on the dock,
Yet always miss the boat.
Trying, trying not to sink,
It's hard to stay afloat.
Grabbing hard with all your might,
But can never get a grip.
Holding fast to what you know,
Yet always feel it slip.
Wanting to take a step away,
And join in on the race.
Running, running away from it all,
But forever frozen in your place.

TLA 8/4/15

Do I Dare? (8/3/15)

I ask myself, "Do I dare love again?"
When it never brought anything but pain.
I tell myself it's not worth it, but then,
Should I allow loneliness to remain?

It is possible to put it behind?
All the misery, the pain and deceit?
Or will it always be there to remind,
That love has always gone down in defeat?

I try to decide if it's worth my heart,
To take the risk of additional break.
To leave it intact or break it apart,
And take the chance of another mistake.

And I sit here with no answers to share,
So I keep asking myself, "Do I dare?"

TLA 8/3/15

Contradiction (7/23/15)

I was never hip, I was never cool,
Always hopeful, yet always the fool.
I am the lonely, even in a crowd,
Realistic, but my thoughts in a cloud.
Wanting to belong, but always stood out,
Craving confidence, but always in doubt.
Wanting to think that I am ten feet tall
Wishing I didn't always feel so small.
Worrying how I will get through the day,
Somehow knowing it will all be okay.

TLA 7/23/15

Questions (7/23/15)

How could the sadness in the eyes be missed?
Why is there loneliness when the lips are kissed?
When is there time when you have been dismissed?
Where is the soul when you only exist?
Where can you go when there's no where to run?
When will it end when it's only begun?
Why reach for more when you know there is none?
How could the sadness ever be undone?

TLA 7/23/15

Remember When (7/19/15)

Remember when, so very long ago,

When I thought the two of us were good friends?

All the times we spent, oh how could I know,

That in time, all things will come to an end.

Remember when you asked me to leave you?

And yet you wouldn't explain to me why,

After all these years if you only knew,

How much it killed me to tell you good-bye.

Remember the card that you sent me?

A year after that heart-breaking fall night?

A Christmas card with your apology,

And yet, still no explanation in sight.

It will be eighteen years in November,

I wonder if you even remember.

TLA 7/19/15