Lonely (a Sonnet) (10/30/15)

It is nights like these that I remember,
That I'm utterly and fully alone.
It's a few days away from November,
And here I am still living on my own.
I waited far too many years for you,
But cannot bring myself to trust again.
You'll never know all that you put me through,
Any more now than you ever did then.
Loneliness is a soul crushing feeling,
That I learned to hide behind a smile.
I'm spending my time always concealing,
Just how lonely I have been all the while.
And you, you never bothered to recall,
You left me lonely that night in late fall.

TLA 10/30/15