Lessons 1/14/15

I've grown so weary,
Of the words that you speak.
You think me desperate,
You think I'm weak.
Yet there were lessons,
The lessons you taught;
Believe in no lies,
And have my own thoughts.
Don't take the abuse,
Hold my head high,
Know when it's over,
And when to say, "Goodbye."
The words that you spew,
No longer have control,
Since I sent you packing,
And made myself whole.

TLA 9/11/14-1/14/15

Mandi

Thunder boomed,

Lightening flashed,

Rain came down,

Winds lashed.

So very loud,

Oh, so bright,

Both storm and you,

Flash in the night.

A mighty storm,

Yells the sky,

Loud and clear,

Was your goodbye.

TLA 7/30/14-1/9/15

Character

Do not put your words in my mouth,

And keep your thoughts out of my head.

There's no room for your idle talk,

I have my life to live instead.

Put away your hateful deceit,

Or find the tables turned on you.

Before you know it the lies turn,

And the shower of shame ensues.

So could you do me a favor?

Walk away and never come back. 

What I possess is character,

It's one thing you will always lack.

TLA 8/24/14-1/9/15

Youth

Nov 5, 2014/Jan 7, 2015

Up on stage,

Maybe seventeen,

In a black mini-skirt,

With crimped blond hair.

Singing about

The metro; maybe a soldier.

The lights flashing,

The music up loud.

So long ago.

Now the metro

Is long silent,

Mini-skirt hung up.

Memories of youth.

Sonnet 2 (Real Love) 9/4/14

I prayed, how I prayed, to find me a love,

Before long there was a knock at the door,

I thought I have my answer from above,

As it turned out it was worse than before.

But a few months later I received some news,

That I really had never expected,

A new life, how could I ever refuse?

My life would forever be affected.

                                                                                

Yet the love I thought had been meant to be,

Was one of pain and devoid of all joy,

Then suddenly the lightning would strike me,

I realized it was my blue-eyed boy.

My boy who will always make my heart smile,

Who makes every day even more worthwhile.

For: my son

6/3/14-9/4/14 TLA

Sonnet 1 (Closure)

The years go by without ever seeing,

And never knowing what happened that night,

Were you watching me as I was fleeing?

Or turn away as I ran out of sight?

It wasn’t my choice to turn and run out,

That decision made completely by you.

Whatever the reason; love, hate or doubt,

The answer was something I never knew.

I’ve come to realize after all these years,

The truth is something I’ll never know.

It’s time to put away sadness and tears,

And bring all those memories to a close.

The time has come to pack away the pain,

Leaving memories before that night came.

6/2/14 TLA

Autumn (Rondeau)

Waiting for autumn to show its face,

The heat of the summer it will replace.

The changing leaves they sit atop,

Multi-colored before they drop,

To float to the ground with grace.

The air gets crisp with just a trace,

Of the heat of the summer in this place,

And very soon they will make the swap,

Waiting for autumn to show its face.

For the Earth is ready to slow its pace,

Slowing down from summer’s warm embrace,

Readying itself for the first raindrop,

Knowing it’s time for the heat to stop.

The poor scorched Earth it will erase,

Waiting for autumn to show its face.

6/1/14 TLA

*First attempt at Rondeau poem

Goodbye (Villanelle)

Goodbye

Sometimes you have to say goodbye,

To those you meet along the way,

Then they’re gone and we never learn why.

Some are gone in the blink of an eye,

They’re here and then they go away,

Sometimes you have to say goodbye.

We rage, we cry, we try to deny,

We get on our knees and pray,

Then they’re gone and we never learn why.

Others linger, they will defy,

They do all they can to stay,

Sometimes you have to say goodbye.

But, no matter how hard they try,

They eventually fade away,

Then they’re gone and we never learn why.

Some walk away, others die,

There are things you never get to say,

Sometimes you have to say goodbye,

Then they’re gone and we never learn why.

6/1/14 TLA

*First attempt at Villanelle poem.

Reflection

That reflection that I see each day,

The one that always stares my way.

Why can’t I accept the one who stares,

Why must I continue to always compare?

Why can’t I change it; the one that I see?

Why can’t I accept the one that is me?

6/1/14 TLA

Decisions

If I could only have one wish,

Would I go back and change the past?

Would I change the mistakes that I have made,

Or leave the die as cast?

Would I choose another path,

And start is all anew?

Or would I own up to all my mistakes,

Of which there are more than a few.

Would I keep the love as is,

All the love and pain and sorrow?

Or would I give it all away,

To have a new tomorrow?

But all I am and all I’ll be

Is based on what I’ve sown.

So I think I’ll leave it all intact,

Everything that I have known.

6/1/14 TLA