Slumber

Unto slumber I must go,
To dream the dream that no one knows,
While loneliness continues to grow,
Dreams of those from long ago.
They never leave, they haunt your mind,
A bit of peace you'll never find,
The past and present are entwined,
The past cannot be left behind.
In the light you think you're free,
But in life there's no guarantee,
Close your eyes and the dreams will be,
All the things you don't want to see.

5/27/14 TLA

Lines

There’s a fine line,

Between love and hate,

The space in between is lies.

Lies that spill forth,

Without any guilt,

And always in disguise.

Disguised as the truth,

It’s so hard to tell,

Even within your eyes.

Eyes that deceive,

Just as your lips,

And the truths that they revise.

Revise the line,

And the line gets crossed,

And all that’s left are lies.

TLA 5/7/14

January 31, 2014

Startled awake by a boom,
Wondering what's happened,
And whether I should get up.
I lay there waiting,
And here is comes again.
It starts out low and intensifies,
Until it's booming over my head,
And I can feel it in my nerves.
I lay there and listen,
While it runs its course,
Seeing the light flash,
Behind my closed eyes.
It calms and I drift back to sleep.

January 30, 2014

Will there ever come a day,
When I can stop sabotaging myself,
And do the things I know need to be done?
Will there ever come a day,
When I can overcome myself,
And be exactly what I want to be?

January 29, 2014

Shoulders tighten,

Neck stiffens,

Head feels like it will burst.

You try to grasp hold,

Before it all blows,

But acid flows out in waves,

Before you know what happened.

January 28, 2014

Get out of my dreams,
Leave me alone,
You should have been gone,
A long time ago.
Leave me in peace,
Let me move on,
Stay out of my dreams,
Let it be done.

January 27, 2014

Yes, I deliberately didn't acknowledge,
What I knew the other day to be,
As much as I wanted to.
It's time to lay the past to rest,
And stop coming back to it,
In the loneliness of the night.

January 26, 2014

So far away from home,
And just want to make it back.
Your eyes tell you they're not up for it,
But you know you can't rest until you're there.
Struggle through it,
Fight it all the way,
Tell yourself you'll make it,
And then grab some caffeine.

January 25, 2014

Eyes barely open, 

Trying so hard to hold on

But losing with each passing minute.

Eye lids get heavy, 

Slowly closing,

Finally out for the count.

January 24, 2014

Such a long day,

Feels like it will never end.

In a week full of long days, 

So glad it's Friday.